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Av Kasia - 31 mars 2014 12:28

I had a lion chase experience this morning.
Someone STOLE an hour of our life on Saturday night!!! So we woke up one hour later this morning.
But green/red juice had to be mede anyway and egg and cucumber sandwich had to be eaten by my boy before daycare.
I ESCAPED the lion when I NOTICED that a stress reaction is flusing over my body and I managed to breath through it.
More? I managed to make a NEW PLAN. (Drive instead of walking!) and I mede it to the meeting I had on time!!
Now when the meeting is over I sit with a huge cup of caffeine free tea, eat a raw eco bar and I breath myself back to ballance.
I REST! And I am proud :)
Love to All.

Av Kasia - 30 mars 2014 16:06

Is stress dangerous for us?

NO! Stress (and adrenaline) has always helped us survive when we were in danger. When we needed to choose between fight or flight.

Take ZEBRAS. They live among lions. They are lions’ food. They should be TERRIBLY STRESSED.

But they are not. Why? They do not PLAN or WORRY for the next lion chase. They do not ANALYSE their last lion chase. What they do is they RECOVER after the lion chase. They go and chew some grass and sunbath, scratch their backs on trees, whatever.

This is why ZEBRAS are mentioned in stress recovery sometimes. And this is why I choose to be one. I choose to rest when I need to. I choose to respect my body’s signals. And also SAVE the energy for the times I can need it more. As often as I manage...

And when I feel I might need an extra reminder I put my talisman on for help:

   

So do not be afraid of stress! Moderate stress pushes us forward and helps us achieve things!

As long as it is followed by RECOVERY and REST we are on the safe side   

There are still few hours left of this Sunday, so REST YOURSELF INTO THE NEW WEEK!

Love to All.

Av Kasia - 29 mars 2014 23:03

I was going to write about the Zebra-effect, but it does not tickle me at all tonight.

Do I dare to write about how CALM I managed to be the whole day? Will it make tomorrow a day from hell? Will I jinx it?

I will take the risk.

I don’t really know what happened. I don’t know what it was that I had done differently.

Often times the weekends are most challenging for me. I find no space for myself mentally and I feel it is too much to do with all the people, all the food and all the fixing.

But today?

All the children were happy, kind and helpful. At least 2 of 3 were unplugged most of the day (not only during Earth Hour!) doing stuff together with us, running outside. There was this symbiosis and harmony above us.

And now the question is, was I calmer because the whole family was so harmonious or were they harmonious because I was calmer?


Last Saturday I destroyed my day by doing too much. I did not repeat the same mistake today. I even took a nap during the day and several breaks in the sun. Am I possibly getting wiser? Am I possibly starting to listen to what my physical body needs?

 

Harmony, I spread my arms wide open to welcome you. Please stay!


Love to All and goodnight.

Av Kasia - 27 mars 2014 22:06

Today I got reminded, again, how fragile my new constitution is. It has happened before so I should be trained in being flushed down the toilette. And I am somehow.

There were days when I seriously believed that I failed in recovering, just as I failed in everything else.

Today I know that this is how recovery looks like. One step forward, two steps back. Sometimes three or four, and a flush down the drain. For a while.

One therapy hour can use all the fuel I had saved for the entire day. This afternoon I closed the door behind me and I prayed quietly for someone to lead me home. I guess I prayed too quietly. But I came home...

Because today I am a Zebra. I do my race for life and then I rest, I charge my batteries. I let the healing process take its time. And the rest has to wait.

I am now also very aware of the thoughts I choose to believe in. Because they are the roots of my feelings. And I refuse to feel like crap anymore so I CHOOSE not to.

Do you THINK you can BELIEVE that?   


 Love to All.

Av Kasia - 26 mars 2014 21:14

Honestly, isn’t it kind of ugly to put yourself first? Before others?

As I see it now, putting anyone and anything else before you works only short term.

In order to create a sustainable life strategy for yourself you need to take care of YOU. And when you do it properly you can be a bottomless dwell of kindness and help for others.


When you fly next time try to listen to the security instructions carefully. What do they say about the oxygen masks? Put YOUR OWN on first so that you can assist anyone else around you. Even if it is your child! I thought it was a terrible, heartless idea at first. And then things happened in life and I had to revisit my own idea of right and wrong. In parenting. Working. Living (a harmonious!?!?) life.

Our children don’t need hero-parents. They need healthy examples of how they should take care of themselves.

I have always been a terrible example of just that. Until recently. I gave up bad conscious when I go and do YOGA one evening a week. Or when I stay home all alone a whole weekend and retreat within, REST, listen to silence. Every day I train myself in self-love. And self-respect. Because you have to respect yourself enough to see that you deserve attention from that kind person you are to others. But seldom your own self! Not true?

I like to think: When I say NO to one thing it gives me a chance to say YES to something else later on. One small NO now and then can be an investment into a bigger YES in the future. Isn’t that an excellent way to save yourself a lot of bitter thoughts of selfishness?

I think so. And it works LONG TERM!

We like long term. We like strategies that last. Even more, strategies that ADD to the quality of our life.

As I said, it was not always this way for me. I was nowhere near these notions of self-care until that other strategy actually left me “thorn and bleeding on the floor”.

Only recently, and with significant help from other people, I realized that I am worthy of wearing a sweetest sign of love. A heart.

I felt I was too huge and clumsy, and serious, respectable (!)… piece of iceberg to wear it.

But look now:

 

Nothing becomes a universal truth only because someone or something made you believe in it long enough. Think about it.

Love to All.

Av Kasia - 23 mars 2014 17:08

...to save myself today. And I did to some extent manage to DO less, to pause more and to say NO.

It is not always easy. My husband asked me during our after lunch tea break: "Are you sure it is only the burn out you are suffering from?" ;)

It may seam hilarious, but is it? 18 months and still so much left to do, or UNDO. Undo the evil I have done to myself, to my pure little defence system.

***

Big girls don't cry. Bite me!


Even stones surrender under too much pressure.

      

Reminds me of one of my favourite lyrics ever: "...under pressure we're cracking." Queen.

A Spotify link should follow this post. Let's see if it works :)

Av Kasia - 22 mars 2014 21:11

Every day can teach us something. Today I’ve learned that when I recover from a burn out and when I detox I should not roast chicken, fry pancakes, work in the garden and carry around heavy stones on our own private construction site all at one day.

I’ve been there before, I mean. I should have understood the signals. Irritation, lack of patience for a muddy (yes, covered with mud!) 5-year-old. Lack of joy. Smiling muscles in the off-line mode.

Even now, I should drop everything and go to bed but I sit here and try to write a few sensible words. Because that was my PLAN.

And in order to change plans one has to be a bit FLEXIBLE, not to mention being open for a different outcome.

Also, there must be an ALTERNATIVE, and an exhausted mind is never particularly creative, at least not mine. So I just continue. With the power of my WILL and HABIT.

In other words my recovery day has become my “let’s finish her off” day.

So is there a bright side to a major failure?

 

OF COURSE there is!

Today was a wakeup call, a reminder of the vulnerable side of me.

Tomorrow I can try again. If I will be blessed with another day I can choose differently. I can choose ME. I can proudly say NO to things. Even “very important matters”. I can lift my head high and say: “Sorry, today is a Kasia-day.”

Will I? Will I????

***

Good night you good guys. Take good care of yourself  <3

Av Kasia - 19 mars 2014 14:09

 


Imagine that one day you are able to push yourself so hard that you actually complete 30 kilometers cross country run. And soon after you are hardly able to walk your 4 years old to the day care two blocks away.

Imagine that you are able to take responsibilities at your job. You are trusted and you are a part of huge projects with people you respect and admire. And the next day you are not able to measure up pasta for 5 people.

Imagine that you are the queen, or king, of optimizing, running through “to do”-lists and delivering something to someone all the time. And suddenly you have a major nervous breakdown because your spouse needs a small favor… on Friday, and he asks you on Monday.

Imagine that today you are the one who likes to keep an eye on everything and everyone and tomorrow you need to protect your eyes from artificial light and you use earplugs just to survive a subway journey.

One day you have control, and the other you stand in the shower and wash your ears with your extra mild pussy soap.


I’ve been through all this these recent months. It was and still is a fight for survival. Fight for acceptance for what had happened. Struggle to go on even if I had no idea who I become and if I would ever recover. Fight against shame and an overwhelming feeling that I have done everything wrong.

Today I am building myself up. From scratch you could say. I dear to call myself Kasia, to begin with. A vulnerable person, a small child deep within.

I learn a whole new range of feelings and reactions to what life has to offer.

I discover and accept that nothing needs to remain as it has always been.


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